different

Do you ever just feel like you are different? I have always felt a little different from everyone else but being different is good because everyone is different. What would the world be like if we were all the same. Right?? Well lately I have felt like I do not fit in with anyone that I know. That I have nothing in common with even my friends that I talk to all the time. No one that is in my circle is even in the same place in life that I am in. They are married, have kids, have jobs that are careers, have their great little families and do not live with their parents.

All throughout life it has never bothered me that I was different form others but I guess in the long run I was never different or if I was was at least in the same place or within the same block of life. But now for the past few days that seems to be the only thing that I can think of. Especially since I have been hanging out with my best friend and her son. I want more that anything to fall in love, get married, have children and have a career where I think that I am making a difference in the lives of others and loving doing it everyday.

I am 28 almost 29 and feel like I have no direction and am in a huge hole and cannot get out. I know that I do not need to worry that I need to hand everything over to God but it is so hard. I just do not want to live to have regret. It terrifies me that as everyday passes I think that I could be ok with not having a husband or kids. I do not know if I am really ok with it or I just keep telling myself that to make me feel better that I am almost 30 with nothing going for me.

Ok well that is enough about that! I just had to get that off my chest!

Love yall