Blogging.........AGAIN

Ok Friends! I am going to start blogging again! I am the absolute most amazing job EVER. God has blessed me beyond belief with the job that was in the making since October 2004. If you do not know that story it is a long one and I will be more that happy to tell you. I get to come into contact with such amazing people. Cancer Survivors are in a class all to themselves. My job has become more special because recently my mother was diagnosed with Squamos Cell Carcinoma. It is a type of skin cancer that is typically removed and that is the end of the story. That is exactly what happened. My grandmother my MiMi lost her battle with Breast cancer when I was in 3rd grade. I have never had an immediate family member hear those words "You have cancer" that is SCARY! and to think that my life is engulfed in cancer everyday. I work everyday to fight cancer so people do not have to hear those words and yet I could not stop it from my momma hearing those words. She is fine and did not have to have chemo or radiation or anything else but as we were sitting there eating Hot Dogs and she tells me she has cancer my heart dropped. I am very fortunate that my momma is still here. I work with some people that cancer took their momma's from them, and that is what I fight for so that cancer will one day not take mommas from their kiddos. I love my mother and am very thankful that she is here a cancer survivor and all.

My job is insanely stressful especially right now in the middle of Relay For Life season but I get to fight cancer EVERYDAY! I Love it!!

different

Do you ever just feel like you are different? I have always felt a little different from everyone else but being different is good because everyone is different. What would the world be like if we were all the same. Right?? Well lately I have felt like I do not fit in with anyone that I know. That I have nothing in common with even my friends that I talk to all the time. No one that is in my circle is even in the same place in life that I am in. They are married, have kids, have jobs that are careers, have their great little families and do not live with their parents.

All throughout life it has never bothered me that I was different form others but I guess in the long run I was never different or if I was was at least in the same place or within the same block of life. But now for the past few days that seems to be the only thing that I can think of. Especially since I have been hanging out with my best friend and her son. I want more that anything to fall in love, get married, have children and have a career where I think that I am making a difference in the lives of others and loving doing it everyday.

I am 28 almost 29 and feel like I have no direction and am in a huge hole and cannot get out. I know that I do not need to worry that I need to hand everything over to God but it is so hard. I just do not want to live to have regret. It terrifies me that as everyday passes I think that I could be ok with not having a husband or kids. I do not know if I am really ok with it or I just keep telling myself that to make me feel better that I am almost 30 with nothing going for me.

Ok well that is enough about that! I just had to get that off my chest!

Love yall

It is June!

Today was so much fun. I had the day off from work and went to lunch with Peggy and then we went and saw the movie The Bridemaids! It was HilAriOuS!! Now it was totally filled with F bombs but I do not think that I have laughed like that in a movie in a ling time.

I also had some great sleep with the rain this morning. I am really liking my job and am really loving being in the medical field. What was crazy was one day I knew literally 97% of all the people that came into the clinic. I have joined Gold's Gym again and am loving it. Had my first body pump class and it felt awesome to sweat like that and have those muscles sore and hurt from being worked. Tomorrow it is 6am spin class!!

I have totally got to get back into studying my bible and journaling and getting that back into my life because have that close relationship with God is what makes me happy no matter what and I am totally needing that. Tonight I got to talk with a friend who moved to Qatar and I cannot wait to hear sometime if and when I get to go.

If I could I would get on the 15 hour plane ride tomorrow!!! Well I better let yall go because 6am is going to come early!

love yall!

Good Times!

Summer is my absolute favorite time of year!! I love the Sun, Swimming, the Beach and the smells of summer! Watermelon, Strawberries, Sunblock, the pool and something cooking on the grill. I am excited that I have been able to be poolside yesterday and today!! Tomorrow is my last day at the daycare! I will definitely miss the people I work with and when the kiddos are sweet!!! However I am very excited about moving onto this next chapter in my life!! St. Joseph here I come. I am down 10 pounds and cannot wait for it to be another 10 to that.

Larry and I are going to lunch today and then we are going to hang by the pool and catch a great tan. This past Saturday the 3 beach lovers (Andrew, Sybil and I) headed to Galveston for the day. It was only about 2.5 hour drive which was not bad at all. We had so much fun! We will definitely be going again. I know that Galveston is no Gulf Shores, Panama Beach etc. It was more than awesome to just sit in my little chair on the beach, watching Andrew Boogey Board his little heart out was just great! I am so excited to have been able to spend time with my family.

love yall and talk to yall soon!!

This weekend we are going to San Antonio!! Goal=scrubs!

Goals and the Biggest Loser

I absolutely love the Biggest Loser!! As being on my own weight loss journey it is a big inspiration to watch the show and get great tips. This is something that my sister and I are embarking on together. This is something that I have to do for myself. I also have to realize that I can do this and that God will guide me through this and he will give me the strength and drive to get to my goal weight of 110 pounds. My ideal weight for someone my height is 97-124. I know that he is right along side me and will get me through this incredible journey. I want to be able to love myself and be able to wear something sleeveless or just anything cute and feel cute and beautiful. I never want to be told again that I have a pretty face! I want to be beautiful inside and out form head to toe and honestly feel that way. I am going to take a tip from Jay on the biggest loser and write my 110 on my wrist everyday so I can look at it and see if before I make a choice so I can ask myself is this choice going to help me get to 110!?!?!? As of today I am down 8 pounds and excited because you have to start somewhere!!

On another note I am so excited to go on Friday and fill out all of my paperwork for St. Joe's. I love not having to look for a job. On saturday Sybil, Andrew and I are going to Galveston for the day. I know that it is Galveston which is not all that great but as long as there is Sun, Sand and Waves I am good!!

TTYL

What a great weekend!

Ok! I totally have to admit that it has been really weird to be on the computer daily and NOT be looking for a job. It is just crazy because that it what I have done since 12/27/10. This weekend has been so great that I am not looking to going to the daycare and dealing with the 2 yr olds tomorrow. It has just been a lot of fun to be around family and friends.

Friday I helped out with painting some posters for VBS and it was A LOT of fun. Larry, Cheryl, Karen and I could not stop laughing. Saturday was spent walking, running errands, sending Jon off to prom, and going to the Starlight Music Concert featuring Aeromyth! It was so great! It was not Aersomith but a great free alternative. Sunday started with another walk, yummy starbucks Coconut Mocha, Church, Freebirds with Andrew, Jess and Logan and then fun at the Pool, and then the church picnic; which was so much fun!!!

Logan was so adorable at the pool he kept telling me and Andrew to look at him and he LOVED LOVED LOVED the slide! He is just absolutely the cutest.

I did not make the best choices when it came to eating this weekend, but had 2 morning walks. Sybil and I are starting to walk in the mornings at 5am! We will see how this goes. This week I am going to follow my points to the T and get in atleast 1 walk a day! I want to feel very confident in my swimsuit and tanktops and fun summer clothes. I know that I can do this because God is totally all in this.

Well I am exhausted! Hope you all had a great weekend too!! TTYL!! PS we are headed to the beach in a few days. I know that we are just going to Galveston for the day but I LOVE THE BEACH! So I could care less! I cannot wait to hear the WAVES!!

EMPLOYMENT!!!!!

As of June 7th I will be employed by St. Joseph! I will be working at the Express Clinic, I will be between the one in Bryan and College Station. I am very very excited!! I will be one of the registration girls. The best part is I will get to wear scrubs!!! YAYEAH!! I am so incredibly blessed to have this amazing opportunity to get my foot in the door with St. Joseph. WOO HOO!! I went in for the interview at 8:30 and by 1:30 got the phone call with the offer! That is what I am talking about!!